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2013

Well of course I can't sleep. Lol. It's 1:11am Jan 1st and I'm trying to block out the fact that I'm leaving for Africa tomorrow so that my stomach will stop turning and I can actually get some sleep. Yeah, that's not happening. :) I spent the night with some of my favorite people on earth and that helped to pass the time but now alone in my room with nothing but quiet to listen to my mind is racing. I have no idea what to expect other than what Mandy has told me, but that's not enough. If you know me you know that I usually like a detailed plan to know what I'm getting myself into but I don't think anything can prepare me for what's about to happen in my life. I have fought back tears many times today thinking about what's about to take place. It's a bit overwhelming to be honest with you. The fact that I'm stepping out in gods will and fear has had no place in this is so amazing to me. I'm humbled that He's given me this opportunity to serve his people. I can't even adequately put these emotions into words; I'm failing miserably. Tears are the only way I know how to express it. That may not make sense to some of you but it's that overwhelming. It's what love and nervousness and anxiousness and excitement and anticipation feels like. It's sort of like the feeling you have a a little child when you know that tomorrow is Christmas but times 10!

I don't think it's a coincidence that I'm literally starting 2013 off by going on a mission trip. I'm believing this year that great things will happen. I'm believing that god will work wonders in my life and the lives around me. I pray the same for all of you reading this.

The next post will probably happen when I'm in Africa. I'm praying that the wifi is good enough for me to post. I know these are lengthy but it's this girls heartbeat :)

Happy New Year!

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