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The big T

So I guess I've decided to keep going with this blog. Surprisingly, I'm finding that I like writing on this thing. My thoughts are mainly for me but maybe someone might feel the same about things and it helps to know you're not alone sometimes :) (At least for me it does) Ill try to keep it shorter than my blog from Africa though lol.

So the big T. Wonder what that is? Transition. Spiritual transition. For me this word makes me want to cringe and be excited at the same time. My life has been in this faze for over a year now and it feels as though the emotions of it all are increasing daily. It's a mixture of excitement, wonder, and frustration all at once. Now I know frustration isn't what   god gives us but I've been feeling it. It's like I'm standing at the edge of the cliff wanting to jump, not sure what Im jumping into, but ready and not afraid, yet someone is holding my shirt and saying not yet. There's two things pulling me; knowing that there's something worth jumping into and gods timing and will. Is it a family of my own? Is it a spiritual calling? Is it a breakthrough? I'm not sure but I know that whatever it is, gods got a plan for me.

And I'm not alone. I've talked to several people who are in the same " holy frustration" lol. Knowing god has his hands upon your life but just blindly walking by faith and trusting him along the way. I had a thought tonight. You know, even Jesus had to wait 30 years before he began his ministry. There's an appointed time for all of us. I don't want to miss his visitation so I am making sure I'm in a place for him to use me. I want to be ready and available and willing!

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  1. AnonymousJanuary 25, 2013 at 10:40 AM

    Echo your sentiments . . . . on "Any Given Day", to be ready, available, willing and with a lamp full of oil! Let the things that make for your peace never be hidden from your eyes. Luke 44:42 Lisa W

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