Lord, use me. A prayer I've prayed a million times. But lately I've been doing some soul searching, or rather God has been telling me about myself. (Don't you love when he does that.) I've always wanted to be used by God greatly. I've said that I've surrendered all, sang the song a million times, and just turn around to pick up all the junk I've laid on the alter for the 15th time that month and try to figure out this "surrendered" life I'm supposed to lead. I've tried to map out how he can use me, where he can use me, and what he will have me doing. Well let me just tell you folks, my head has been stuck in the sand for many years. Now don't get me wrong, I've always wanted what God wanted for me and although I've put up a fight for a few things, I usually give in, hang my head like a little girl, and say "You were right all along and I should have listened the first time." Why do us girls always try to figu